Months Go By

So, as I'm looking here,  http://felchingpisser.blogspot.com/ , I see that it's been six months since my last post. The main reason for this is that I made a decision about a year ago not to BB anymore.  I  had a medical event last July, and as a follow up, my primary doc ran a whole gamut of tests, including HIV. When I got the negative results back, I decided it was time to stop tempting fate, and stop engaging in unsafe sex. Thus, the limited number of posts. If you want to hear about the safe things I've been doing, give me some feedback, and I'll be happy to share.

A Cross Roads

I find myself at a junction and am not sure which road to take. I woke up on Valentine's Day with a very sore penis and realized that I had the clap. I went to the clinic, got the shot and pills and was fine by Wednesday morning. I went in on Feb 24 to get test results and came back negative for a whole range of STDs, including HIV. I feel as though I dodged a bullet, but part of me says that coming up negative after two or three years of being a bareback top shows that as a top, my risk of infection isn't something to be worried about. I'm not sure if I'm rationalizing, or if there's something to it. Any thoughts?