Bad Decisions Come Home To Roost

 Yesterday was my birthday, and as it turned out,  the married guy Charlie, wanted to take me to lunch for said event. Lunch was great, and I had a lot of fun just being with him, but things didn't turn out the way I wanted them to. We went back to my place and we were both ready for action. We went after it, hot and heavy in the kitchen, kissing, touching, caressing, feeling, and exploring. After some time, it was time for the main event so we went up to the bedroom, and things kinda unraveled from there. We stood in front of the mirror, me in front of him, semi-clothed, as he kissed, caressed, and told me who much he liked looking at me. Such an ego boost! I told him I wanted him to suck me, so he sat on the bed and I put my cock in his mouth. Unfortunately, this did not have the desired effect on me, and I knew why. I told him to come lay down with me, and as he did I grabbed him really tightly and began to cry. I finally had to reconcile my feelings with reality. I told him how much I enjoyed spending time with him, how much I was going to miss him, and that he meant more to me than just a fuck buddy. He agreed we were more than just fuck buds and he was going to miss me as well. When we were downstairs, I'd told him that if we'd met in college, we'd be married today. His response was a tepid, "Maybe" but that didn't bother me. It bothers me that I developed feelings for this guy, knowing all along he has a wife and is moving. I thought I could control my feelings and emotions, but I was unable. We stayed on the bed, talking, me crying sometimes, kissing, rubbing, hugging, and holding each other. We stayed this way for quite some time, about 45 minutes, when he decided he wanted to go workout. We came downstairs, and he asked if I could make coffee. I said sure, and he asked for iced coffee. I don't keep ice in my freezer, so we went out for a coffee and spent another hour talking about all types of things. I told him I wanted to go to the FIFA Fan Fest here, since it's a once a lifetime event, and he said he'd been wanting to go. So, compounding the bad decision, we're now going to FanFest together the first week in July. I really have thing for this guy, and I don't know what to do about it. 

Bro Bate Three

 Went to another jack off gathering Monday. Walked in and host was lying on the floor, fully erect, and stroking his large penis. I greeted him, stripped, lubed up, and began stroking my now fully aroused penis. I stood over the host giving him an ant's eye view of me stroking my now fully hard cock. We both began talking to each other, describing how good it felt to stroke our fully erect penises, where it felt especially good to stroke and caress our cocks. I got down on the floor next to him and we grabbed each others' cocks and gently stroked and caressed each other, describing how good it felt to hold another man's penis, and how much we were looking forward to ejaculating our semen. I showed him a move I saw on Will Tantra's OF. You grab his penis in your fist at the base, hold, squeeze, and release. Move your hand up to the middle of the shaft and repeat. You then move your fist to th head of the penis, and repeat again. Each grip feels different and sublime in a completely different way. While I was finishing this move, Ray walked in the door and began to strip. He came over to the mats with us, laid down and began stroking his erect penis. I stood over the host as he lifted his arms to stroke my throbbing cock. He told me I was leaking precum and licked it off his fingers. We stroked each other, rubbed our cocks together, and kept talking dirty to each other. There were several toys available for play, so Ray and I tried a few out. First we tried a slap shot, which feels heavenly as it is moved up and down the shaft of your cock. Ray hadn't used one before and the look on his face when I slid it over the head of his cock was priceless. As good as that felt, there was a fleshlight available, and Ray had never used one of those, either. I poured some lube into the sleeve, slid it over the head of my cock, and went to town enjoying how great it felt, milking my cock with each stroke up or down. I pulled out, and used it on Ray. Again, the look on his face was priceless as I slowly stroked the sleeve up and down the entire length of his shaft. This whole time, Ray had been lying on the floor, stroking his cock, telling us how much he enjoyed watching us play with each other and the toys. By this time, I was ready to unload, and Steve told me to unload in the fleshlight so he could use my sperm as lube. I began to slowly and deliberately move it up and down the shaft of my cock until I couldn't take it anymore. I kept shooting and shooting into the fleshlight, then pulled it off and put it on Steve's cock, stroking him up and down. He took over and the look on his face told me how much he was enjoying my load covering his cock. I sat down to enjoy my post orgasm buzz, and as I did, Steve pulled the fleshlight off and squirted an impressive load all over himself. Ray took this as his cue to ejaculate, so he moved closer to Steve, and shot all over his chest. Overall, it was a very enjoyable way to spend an afternoon.

Bro Bate Redux

 Had another bate session with Steve on Sunday. Unlike last time, when I got to his place, he was fully clothed, and not stroking his cock. We got naked, and began to masturbate each other. He had a few toys that he was excited to try out on me. We started with a quickshot, a toy I'd never used before. He started by demonstrating how to use it, then gave it to me. I slid it over the head of my cock down to the base and back up again. I don't have the words to describe how fantastic it felt, sliding up and down my cock, and how intense it was as I stroked up and down and also rotated it around my penis. We then shared the toy with each of us sricking our cocks inside until the heads met and touched. We began to rotate it and the feeling was heavenly. I felt read to shoot, but I held back as long as I could and I'm glad I did because the next toy was even more fun. It was a clear fleshlight sleeve without the hard plastic outer case. We tried this toy in tandem next. He slid his penis into the larger opening (his cock has way more girth than I do) and I slid into the smaller opening. The sleeve was clear so we could see our cocks inside the sleeve which was really hot. By this time, my cock had been stimulated for so long, I was ready to ejaculate, so I stopped and came down a bit. I resumed stroking with the sleeve and the feeling was sublime with our cocks side by side in the sleeve and occasionally on top of each other. I had to pull out since I was so close to unloading, but wasn't ready to shoot just yet. We sat down on the sofa next to each other and began to stroke ourselves describing how good it felt and how much we liked stroking our cocks. All this talk had its effect on me, and before I knew it, I could feel my sperm traveling up my penis. I shouted, "FUCK", and unloaded all over my chest and belly. As I came down, I scooped up my load and used it on steve's cock. I loved the way my load and his cock felt in my hand, but he was unable to shoot a load. Regretfully, I got dressed and left...

Bad Decisions

 Readers will remember that I recently met a married dude and started sleeping with him. His wife was out of town last weekend, and Charlie hit me up Thursday wanting to fuck. I wasn't able to accommodate him because of prior plans and he responded that he could come over Friday evening and spend the night. Something got ahold of me, and I agreed. The plan was I'd make dinner, he'd bring wine, AND we'd spend the night together, something I haven't done with anyone since 2001. I spent Friday afternoon cooking a delightful bolognese sauce for dinner, and it didn't disappoint. Right on time, Charlie shows up on my back porch, looking hot and adorable, and carrying wine and other items. He came in, we made out, and I started to get the table set. He'd been with someone earlier in the day, and even though he said it wasn't that great, neither one of us was really interested in sex, so we tabled that topic for another time. Dinner was fantastic, the company was great, and we were happy campers. We kept drinking what was left of the wine, although we each had a beer before dinner. After dinner, we watched the first episode of "Heated Rivalry" since he'd never seen it. When the show was over, we went upstairs to bed. It was beyond odd feeling someone else in my bed, but believe me, I acclimated almost immediately. I slept much better than I thought I would waking up only once to pee as did he. I woke up at my usual 5 am hour and went downstairs to make coffee. Soon I heard him come downstairs and into the kitchen to ask for some coffee. I gave him a cup and he told me he wanted to see more of "HR" since he enjoyed the first one so much. We watched two more episodes before he said he wanted to take me to his favorite bagel place for breakfast. We went and the bagels really were good. He brought me back to my place and left with us tentatively planning for an encore performance the week of the 15th since Mrs. Charlie will be out of town that week. He did tell me that he wondered if us doing what we're doing was distracting me from what I really want, which is to find a boyfriend. I was honest and told him that I'd been going on dates with other men, but there have rarely been second dates with most of them. I know letting him stay over isn't helpful to me because it may get me too attached to him, but I think that ship has sailed. He's moving to Phoenix in August, and I probably won't see him after that, so I plan on enjoying this summer fling while I can.

Bro Bate

 Checked messages on Bateworld yesterday, and a bator I'd been corresponding with left his phone number. I took a chance and texted him about a stroke session, and as luck would have it he was already having a bud over to stroke, and invited me. Of course I wanted to go, and about a few hours later, I was there...

I walk into his apt, and he's on his back, masturbating his very large penis. I say, "Hey bro, u masturbating?" and tells me come in. As  I'm stripping, we realize we'd played before at Dallas' now defunct bator group. I get my clothes off and lube up with some Bator Balm. As I'm getting erect, the door opens and a new guy, Ray comes in. He's Asian, average height, and a tad overweight, but I'm here to stroke, not get married. Anyway, I'm on the floor with the host, and he's stroking my cock while rubbing my balls from behind. The balm and his light touch were sending tingles and shivers up and down my spine. I'd never use Bator Balm before, and now highly reccommend it. As he's stroking me, I'm stroking his impressive cock. As I look down, I see a jock that he's taken to the bator group before. I lost count of how many times I've ejaculated on said jock and it's stiff and stained, just the way he likes it. Ray comes over to us on the other side of S and we begin mutually stroking each other. Both hands feel different to me, but Ray's touch is soft and light, just how I like it. He took my hand and showed me how he liked to be stroked, and it was as if I'd met my twin. Ray's balls were soft, hairless, and silky smooth in my hand, while S had big, hairy balls. The contrast was nice, but as we were on our knees, we decided to stand for more comfort. This was great as we were able to maneuver more easily and come in for a three way kiss multiple times. At some point, R went to sit on the couch and I sat next to him, our arms draped on each other's shoulders. S began giving R head while I stroked. I got up to have R suck me, but the angle and height of the sofa conspired to make it too difficult. I sat down again, kept stroking, and began to kiss R. As I did, I could feel my load traveling up the base of my cock, ready to spray. I told them I was gonna shoot, and shoot I did. Five spurts of semen erupted from my penis, covering me in sperm. I relaxed and let them both give me a bit of after care. When I finally came down, R began stroking his rock hard cock, using some of my load as lube and shot seven volleys of seed that hit the back of the sofa, my shoulder, my bicep, his face, his chest, his belly, and his pubes. We gave him some after care and he was rock hard again in less than two minutes. By this time, though, I had to leave as I had a dinner at 5:30. I thanked them both and left. I sent the pictures I'd taken to S and he responded that R shot a second load after I left and the S shot his first after I left. It was a great time and I look forward to a rematch. 

Bro Spermed Me

 A few weeks ago, I was having lunch with a bud in a Mexican restaurant when I got a Scruff notification. It said, "Are you at Ojeda's?" I answered yes, and our convo began. Not sure why, but I led off with what I was into. We began discussing our kinks, fetishes, turn ons, and such and decided we wanted to bate together. We began chatting with him saying, "I need a consistent bare party. I love sitting back and stroking another man's cock while his hand is on my greased up cock, then after awhile, (sic) love to occasionally lean over and suck a greased up cock and then go back to baiting (sic). He then told me he's got a filthy mouth and could throttle it back if I wanted that. I love dirty talk so didn't want him to hold back. His reply was, "Stroke that greased up penis bro, let's bate our dongs together bro!" We talked about eye contact and how we both love eye contact and kissing. Anyhow, we were able to meet a week or so after our initial contact, and it was fire. I went out to let him in the gate and he looked just like his pix. So far, so good. We got inside, and began making out HARD. This dude is a GREAT kisser, and that's super important to me. Nothing gets me harder faster than a great kisser. We made out for about 15 min, then went into the living room. I'd put TIM's "Meatrack" for inspiration, but it wasn't really needed. He sat on the couch, and began stroking his firm, totally erect, penis. So fucking hot watching him. I love watching men masturbate themselves; it's a great way for me to find out how and where he likes to be touched. I  was also fully hard and erect so I lubed up, sat next to him, and began to stroke. We kept talking to each other, encouraging each other, saying how hot it was to watch another man pleasure himself and how great it was to be a man. We alternated between stroking ourselves and stroking each other, enjoying how hard and firm our penises felt. We kept not only alternating between playing with ourselves and each other, and kept kissing repeatedly. By now I was ready to burst. He stood over me, watching me jack, making direct eye contact, when I said, "I'm gonna ejaculate" He responded, "Dump that load, bro" and with that, I shot, shot, and shot. He was still standing over me and said, "Stroke my cock" I scooped up my load and used it to stroke his red, angry penis. As I was stroking, he said, "I'm gonna cum, bro" and shot ropes. One landed with a splat on my thigh (hot as fuck), then on my chest, then my belly, and finally, the blanket on the sofa.  We talked for a while, cleaned up, said we would do this again, and he left. I was VERY satisfied. 

New Fuck Buddy Round 3

 Hooked up with Charlie again this week. This time, we met at my gym, worked out, and went back to my place for some fun. Workout was good except for the fact that Charlie distracted me a few times with lewd comments, some really nice compliments, and an ass grab. For a married man, I expected a bit more discretion in public, but I'm not bothered by it. I'm gay and don't care who knows it. I just thought he'd be a bit more cautious in public. Anyhow, we got back to my place and the fun began. I went to the pedestrian gate to let him in and we immediately lip locked. This guy is a GREAT kisser. Kissing is one of the most important things to me because nothing gets me harder faster than a great kisser. Gotta say, he tasted great and he said it was the ED meds he'd taken. They were SUPER fast acting because by the time we got in my front door, he was fully hard and ready for action. I'd taken nothing myself, and let him know I hadn't. We went upstairs and the first thing I did was sat on the bad, brought him close to me and began rubbing my face in his crotch. I could see his erection thru his compression pants and it was hot af. I kept teasing him by rubbing my face on it, but had to see it in person and ripped his pants off him. I began sniffing and licking his crotch, overwhelmed by his scent. LOVE the smell of a man who's clean, but just a touch sweaty. I teased him by licking his piss slit, his balls, his taint, and by fingering the rim of his hole. I went all the way down on him, and he began to fuck my face, pushing his seven inches as deeply in me as possible. I gagged a few times, and my eyes teared up. It's the single most aggressive thing he does, and I am here for it.  I'd done a 15 mile bike ride earlier, so def had to shower. He wanted to shower with me, so we jumped in and cleaned up. Showering was fun; we soaped each other, played with our cocks, kissed, hugged, and enjoyed the warm, soothing water. We rinsed, got out, and went into the bedroom. Charlie lay face down, and I dove into his butt, kissing, teasting, rubbing my beard on his back, neck, butt cheeks, cock, and balls. This drove him nuts and I switched to kissing him in all those same places, adding my tongue to lick up and down his crack and cheeks. I kept teasing him, licking all around his hole, but not going in. Eventually, I had mercy, and began to tongue him. He went beserk, moaning loudly and earnestly. I also kept licking up and down his crack, licking his taint and his balls. I got him up on all fours to give him a little rusty trombone action, which I think we enjoyed equally. I then lubed up my fingers, and started with one finger, loosening him up, gradually adding fingers to the count, up to three fingers. This made him crazy, so it was then time for the four inch butt plug. I lubed it, and placed it right at his entrance. I pushed just a bit, and he opened up and swallowed it up. I let it sit for a minute, then slowly began to fuck him with it, the way he likes it. His moaning was turning me on, so I lubed up, put him on his back, and entered him. This man's hole feels like magic on my penis. Soooo smooth, slippery, and warm. It's amazing. I sunk in all the way, stayed for a second, then began to fuck him slowly and deeply. He felt sooo good, but I lost my hardon and pulled out. We kissed and hugged for a bit and my wood came back. He put him on his side, slid back in, pumped a few times, but lost the erection again. Not sure why, but note to self, take the ED meds next time. Anyway, he was understanding; we'd talked about his ED issues the first time we met, and both of us know when this happens, it's not a reflection on the other man, just a consequence of us aging. As we were lying in bed and talking, he told me how nice this felt. I responded  with, "THIS is why I want a boyfriend", and I truly meant it. I miss having that feeling on a regular basis. He had to be back to his wife, so we reluctantly got out of bed. Before that, I asked about getting him off, but he said he probably wouldn't be able to cum, so I left it at that. It's odd finding sex exciting and fun ever without an orgasm. This was unthinkable just a few months ago, but I'm fine with it. As he was getting dressed, I realized that I couldn't smell his hole on my beard because he'd taken a shower with me. Told him he wasn't allowed to shower next time. I was really looking forward to breathing his scent all day. He left, and I thought about what type of man I want for a bf. He's it. Smart, accomplished, genuine, authentic, caring, blah, blah, blah. I know he'll never be mine, but he IS the blueprint for the type of guy I want. Later that evening, I went to an orgy in one of the burbs, and left about 10 minutes after getting there. I realized that sex with strangers isn't really what I want anymore. I want to know the guy, find out what he's about, and then decide if I want to share myself with him. Thanks for coming to my TED talk