A Diversion From the Usual

 I'm not sure how many of you watched "Heated Rivalry". but I did and loved all of it. I know it's fiction, I know it's fantasy, but it awakened feelings in me I'd purposely put away 16 years ago. I'd had a bad run with men, and never seemed to make a good choice in partners. First boyfriend, I loved deeply as only a 22 yr old can, but found out he'd committed armed robbery when we were together, and slept with every man in town. Not good. Second one told me about some guy in his sex and love addicts 12 step group. I begged him at Thanksgiving to stay away from this guy, but when he picked me up at the airport after visiting my fam over Xms, he told me the two of them were a couple, after the three years he'd been with me. Nest one was a great guy, but after a few years told me he wanted to spend more time with his friends, and left me. A year later, we picked back up, but after six months, he did the same thing he'd done before. The last man had been hiding a wicked coke or crystal habit from me, and I couldn't tolerate that. This final event turned me off completely and just reinforced my inability to choose suitable men. Now these longings and yearnings have returned, and I also feel the clock ticking away. I figure I've probably got 20 good years left, and I don't want to spend them alone. So, I started dating again. First two guys were one date types. Nice, but no spark, no real anything. Number two was a different story. Instant attraction when we met irl. Had a really fun first date, culminating in him wanting to blow me in his car. I told him no, but the following week he we went on a bike ride, then lunch and drinks at a dive bar, and sex was def on the menu. Problem was, he couldn't relax enough to let me fuck him. I've been fucking men for a half century, so I know what I'm doing. Nothing I tried worked, so we tabled sex for that evening. It was frustrating to me because he believes the only type of sex involves penetration. Not being nearly so closed minded, this really bothered me. Anyhow, a week later, he came over for dinner, and the same sequence of events unfurled. After that, we kept seeing each other, but he'd find reasons to not have sex. He'd keep suggesting it, then find reasons to back out, one time telling me he was hung up on his ex, who'd died 16 years ago. I shoulda ended it, but I didn't. The Sunday before Easter, he told me he wanted dinner with me on Monday, and wanted me to top  him. I said yes, but Monday afternoon, he texted saying he wasn't cancelling, but...I told him to just cancel and reschedule. Haven't heard back, nor will I. Trooper that I am, I go on date with another guy, really nice, but has his ex wife living with him, and is devoting his time to taking care of here since she's not able. Next guy is cute, a bit younger, and widowed. We have a fun first date, and agree to go out again. Day of date two, he tells me there's a leak in the faucet and he needs a plumber. Fair enough. We reschedule for Saturday, the 18. Texts me this am and says. "I have been reflecting on our first date. Although I am very attracted to you and I had a good time on our date, I feel it is best that I not pursue a dating relationship further..." WTF? Why can't I pick the right man?

Two Blowjobs

 Had a couple of blowjobs this past week. BJ one was a married guy, here on biz. Went to his hotel room and was pleasantly surprised at his hotness level. An inch shorter than I am, beautiful grey eyes, and a not quite dad bod, but not quite gym bod. I tried to kiss him, but he wasn't having it, so I pushed him to his knees and he got to work. For a straight, married man, he proved to be an excellent cocksucker. In fact, when I unloaded some slipped out of his mouth onto the floor, and he licked it up. So, he loves sperm, but who doesn't?

Blowjob two was from a guy I had a crush on for years. He hit me up on bbrt and asked to come breed him. I'd always wanted to do that, so I cruised on over. His place is almost 10 miles from me, so it took a while to get there. As I was driving I kept thinking about how hot he was and got hornier and hornier with each passing minute. He let me in when I got to the door and except for 20 lbs, he looked the same. I went in for a kiss, and he sure could kiss. As we were walking into the bedroom he was telling me about the six loads he took the night before and how they were running down his leg. That supercharged my lbido, so I pushed him to his knees and I slid my cock down his throat. This boy had a throat that would not quit. I grabbed the sides of his head and began to furiously face fuck him. Now, my cock's not huge by any measure, but most men when I face fuck that way, choke, cry, or have similar reactions. Not this guy. He took every inch of me and more, even when my pubes were pressed against his face. His tongue was caressing the underside of my cock and found the magic, most sensitive spot on my penis, making me shoot four days worth of semen down his throat. When I was done ejaculating, I pulled out. He tried to touch my cock, but I told him it was to sensitive. He asked, "Did you cum?" I ssaid, "Yeah, you didn't taste it?" As I said, a champ at cocksucking

Dating

 Met a really sweet, hot guy about a month ago. Physically, he checks 98% of my boxes; silver hair, tall, total bottom, and most importantly, blue eyes. I think he's gorgeous and he thinks the same of me. The issue is that so far, he's been unable to relax enough to let me fuck him. I keep telling him there are plenty of other things we could do, but he's insistent on getting fucked. Ordinarily, I'm fine with a hot man who wants my load in his hole, but this is confusing and frustrating to me. I've eaten his hole (tastes delicious btw), fingered him (he can only take two at a time), won't use toys, and I'm frustrated. Anyone out there have any ideas on how I can get him to open up?

Taking My Load

 I've got a question for all you tops out there. Does make you insanely hot when a bottom tells you he wants your load? Do you get off on knowing that your bottom will be walking around all day with your load in his hole? These two things get me ROCK hard. Let me know your thoughts.

Playing with DDYBULL and his boy PupDuke

 Went to a very small group event on Sunday evening. DDYBULL was pimping his boy, PupDuke out to service other tops. I'd played with both before, but those events were much bigger, with anywhere from 15 - 50 participants. This group was MUCH smaller... I get to the given address and as I'm parking a man from the car in front of gets out of his car and walks toward the house. I get out and follow him. We both walk in at the same time, and hear, "We're out here in the garage" We both walk to the garage, and see DDYBULL sitting spread eagle on a sectional with his boy between his legs, nursing on DDYBULL's ample cock. DDYBULL greets us, and sit next to DDYBULL on the sectional. I'm watching PupDuke throat all of DB's 9 inches and am suitable impressed. I keep watching and realize my cock is hard as a rock and at full attention. I stand up, drop my sweats and shoes, then sit back down. I stroke watching this HOT cock slide in and out of boy's mouth, when DB pulls him off, points him toward me, and says, "Suck his cock, boy" And suck he did. His technique was good except for too much tooth. The corona of my cock got sore VERY quickly and I had to pull him off. All three of us stood up, and the fourth guy came around behind boy, and stood facing all three of us. DB commanded boy to suck this guy's cock and he did, with lots of gusto. He did this for a few minutes until DB ordered him on the coffee table. He got on all fours on the table, and DB began to finger boy's cunt. I was staring at this when DB told me to try him out. I stuck two fingers in, and boy was he wet and hot. I told DB I wanted my cock in there, and he told me to "Fuck my boy" I slid in, and my penis was engulfed in a warm, wet, paradise of soft tissue. i began to slowly piston in and out of his hole, but something felt off, and DB could sense it. He made boy move, and told me to try again. This time felt way better than the previous. I was able to go deeper, and his cunt walls felt smoother and softer than just a few minutes earlier. I was loving the feeling of being inside a warm hole and began to pump faster. DDYBLL came behind me, caressing my nuts, and encouraging me to cum inside his boy, saying how much boy loved to be filled with loads. I told boy to tell me how much he wanted my load, and his response was perfect: "Please, sir, fill me with your seed" THAT sent me over the edge, and I dumped squirt after squirt in his colon. I stopped and let my penis luxuriate in the feeling of cunt and semen. I slowly pulled out when guy four stepped in and began to fuck boy. As he was sliding in and out, I walked around to boy's head, and said, "Clean my penis" He gently suckled on my soft cock, and licked all traces of sperm and hole off my cock. He even told my how good my cock, load, and his hole tasted. All in all, not a bad way to spend a Sunday evening. 

Jack Sesh with New Guy

 A few weeks ago, a guy on Adam hit me up and wanted to jack with me. Various events in his life, however, prevented it from happening until two days ago. We were finally able to connect, so I headed out to his place a little after work on Friday. I'd seen his pictures, but wasn't really sure what he looked like bc I've learned that pix aren't always trustworthy. Turns out, he looks better in real life. He'd told me he thought he recognized me from a 12 step program, but I wasn't sure exactly who he was. Anyway, we'd talked online for a few days before we were actually able to connect, and connect we did. I went over Fri afternoon, and just a few minutes after walking in the door, he had his lubed hand down his pants. I took this as my cue to strip, and he followed suit. I sat on the couch next to him, began stroking my cock, and leaned in for a kiss. This man is a GREAT kisser. Kissing always turns me on, and within seconds, my cock was at full staff. We began caressing each other's cocks, enjoying the variation in speed, grip, and rhythm. He's got a great set of balls, and loved me caressing them. Again, though, his kissing was a game. LOVE kissing while jacking. He popped in some porn, and we resumed stroking each other. At one point, we each laid back against a sofa armrest, facing each other, and watching each other stroke. We were very verbal with each other, complimenting one another and encouraging the bate. I can't remember the exact words, but they were along the lines of, "Hot cock" "Stroke that penis" "Dump that sperm" "Wanna see you unload" "Rub those balls" "Rub the head" etc Too soon, he told me he was close, and shot all over his belly. Because he'd had prostate surgery, his load was clear and watery, not the usual load. I scooped it up and used it as lube, but for some reason wasn't able to orgasm. Such is life. Anyway, it was a fun time, and I think I want to do it again

Going To See My Regular Again

 Went to my regular's again Saturday, and was not disappointed. He greeted me at the door in a jock and harness and escorted me into the bedroom. As usual, there was HOT group sex porn on the tv, and he told me to get on the bed. Guess I didn't ged naked soon enough because he told me I had to take of my shorts, too. As I did, he got right to work between my legs, gently licking the underside of  my cock, paying special attention to the frenulum, which ALWAYS gets me going. In no time at all, I was full erect (thanks generic vitamin v) and he was balls deep on my cock. He's got a great technique that involves going all the way down and licking the underside of my cock while using two fingers to massage the back side of my balls. It's a sure fire winner and really gets me hot. There's a special place on the underside of my cock near the base that is extra sensitive, and will make me cum if he licks just that spot. Well, he did just that, and what I had hoped would be a long, drawn out session, turned into a fairly quick blow and go. As he was licking that special spot and caressing my nuts, I didn't give him any notice until pushing his head down and shooting gobs of my seed down his throat. He pulled off, gently cleaned my penis (it's VERY sensitive right after I ejaculate), came in for a kiss, and thanked me. All in all, a satisfying, if all to brief encounter.